Mariemerong

Gosh, you know th feeling where you rested too much. And better yet, you feel your taking it for granted? I do. Right now. Ever since I was let go off SNEC. Major low self esteem. Seriously low. Its like after my Rome trip. She just plans to shut me out. :/ Still trying to recover from that.

But now I’m moving on to another line of nursing. Private nursing for homes. I’m trying out. I heard they pay their staffs really high. So I’m praying this is the opportunity for me to step up my game and really earn some cash. I really do. 

I’m going to th agency on monday. I just hope it goes all fine. :/

And recently, a couple of my good pals are ignoring me. Ever felt like you had this friends. You treat them like your best. But deep down, they have ulterior motive? Like stupid things like loaning money, staying at your house or maybe just using you to not be feel alone?

And somehow, I don’t have a say. Or, maybe. I say it, then she says its wrong and says something totally alike but she just said it in another way. Omgees.

I just did. I don’t know sometimes when I’m with them I just feel that way. Although I really will miss the times spent clubbing with them, being in trouble. Drinking, getting drunk, messing around. I can’t be fake anymore.

I figured, I rather be myself, then ever be phoney.

And such egoistical brats.